Hi, how are you doing?
I feel very vulnerable sharing this aspect of me here, but as it’s very much a part of who I am, it’s important that I share it. If you feel uncomfortable with “hippy-dippy” I won’t be offended if this post isn’t for you!
As I mentioned in my first post, I’m quite spiritual, so I’ve been intrigued to understand what these skin issues could mean in the non-physical level.
OK, here goes, I’m going in!
On Wednesday 25th August 2021, I listened to one of Gabby Bernstein’s meditations about calling in our Spirit Guides and I asked the question:
“What do I need to know today?”
It was a bit like the scene Liz Gilbert writes about in her best-selling book “Eat, Pray, Love, when she asks what she should do and gets told to go back to bed!
I was immediately told by a male voice:
“You must learn to love yourself more and forgive yourself. Thank your skin and your body for showing you and guiding you.”
Showing me what? Guiding me where? All I knew was that I was itchy, red, sore and very irritable, so how could this possibly be a good thing?! I set about researching the links between this and skin conditions and it all began to make sense…
Skin conditions can be a sign of lack of self-approval. I have Louise Hay’s book “You Can Heal Your Life” and she says that skin problems can be because our individuality is being threatened somehow and we feel others have power over us.
Louise also talks about menopause issues coming from fears of no longer being wanted, fear of ageing, and not feeling good enough (self-rejection).
Further reading informed me that Eczema also links to bottled up anger, frustration and self-rejection; feeling second best, inferior and unaccepted, holding on to old ways of thinking, becoming stagnant, resisting life, lack of self-love.
My eczema issues started about eight or nine months ago with my hands and I read that problems with the hands represent our ability to hold and handle things. If we have problems with our hands we experience fear, hold on to old and out-dated beliefs and reject new ones. It maybe about trying to help everybody else and forgetting to help ourselves.
Once I’d read all this I began to realise that I was resisting the transition that is Menopause and trying to hold on to everything that seemed familiar and safe. This wasn’t serving me well!
The problem crept up my arms, neck and upper chest during the summer months.
I had the absolute pleasure of receiving Energy Healing from a beautiful soul called Tonja Mills a couple of weeks ago – I can’t tell you exactly how she does what she does, but what I can tell you it was a very powerful experience and she was spot on with her insights.
Tonja picked up on my itchy neck and throat and said it felt like I was being scratched by straw and that I have trouble expressing myself properly. Well, yes that’s true, I do. I’m often scared of expressing my authentic self, especially the more spiritual side of me as it’s something not everybody “gets”. I think it comes from a fear of being ridiculed or laughed at, as after all, nobody likes that do they?
She also picked up on the fact that my energy flow is blocked from the crown of my head down to my throat, whereas everything from my heart down to my root was open and flowing beautifully. I’d been introduced to working with Chakras during my coddiwomple of 2015-2016 in Bali and then during my Reiki I attunement in Melbourne, so what Tonja was saying made sense to me. My mind often feels very “busy”, so much so, that I find it hard to pick one task to do and see it through meaning that very often nothing gets done!
Tonja suggested I work with an Amethyst crystal because that will help me to unblock my throat. I don’t know much at all about how crystal energies work, but as I said I’m embracing this from all angles and if connecting with a beautiful piece of crystal helps to heal my broken skin then I’m willing to give it a try! I’ve been practicing my morning meditation ritual holding a small piece of Amethyst lightly in my open hand or with it sitting on the top of my head (which is an interesting exercise in balance!). I don’t know what it’s doing, but something happens because it gets very hot! (the crystal that is, not my head or hand!)
A week after Tonja’s session, I read two messages telling me that it’s my time to shine and to tell the world who I really am. It’s time to be brave <gulp> so here I am and yes it’s very scary!
Two affirmations have been rumbling around my head over the past couple of weeks:
“I safely release all attachments to my past and send them love.”
“I welcome this new cycle of my life with open arms, an open mind and an open heart and trust that all is unfolding for my Highest Good.”
If they resonate with you, then please use them for yourself.
As for my skin, well it now has good days when it is clear and bad days when it is red, itchy and painful. I can definitely feel that something is shifting but I’m not out of the woods yet as the bad days outnumber the good ones. In fact I felt so fed up with it a few days ago I woke up crying. I don’t often cry, but I had felt it brewing for a few days beforehand so I wasn’t surprised. Crying is actually good for us, it’s a form of release and I felt better afterwards, as though I’d loosened the valve at the top of a pressure cooker.
This week hasn’t been good as my arms and hands have flared and my skin resembles a dot-to-dot puzzle!
Next time I will tell you about my ongoing appointments with my GP and how I feel about going Super Sonic! (my term for HRT) I will also write a future post about all the fabulous resources and links you lovely people have suggested to me.
In the meantime, if you would like to connect with Tonja, click here for her link (this isn’t a paid advert by the way, I just love what she does!) and as always, feel free to connect with me via my Facebook page The Coddiwomple Lady, Instagram Wendyj_thecoddiwomplelady where I occasionally post videos about this journey, or by email on hello@thecoddiwomplelady. I love to hear about how you’re coping with menopause and what works for you. It’s good to know that we’re all here for one another.
Thank you so much for reading this, I am so grateful for all the support I have received so far and for everyone who has taken the time to contact me, it means the world.
Until next time, I send you much love,
Wendy xxx